Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Don't close your heart...just keep your eyes open

I guess I just wanted some written form of reflection about love and its realizations, this being a mere one of them. Last night NaNa and I were having dinner with her mother and step-father and of course we touched on a variety of subjects (as usual), one of them being divorce. My parents are divorced and have been separated for roughly 6/7 years or so. I've seen the real downfalls of love, I mean the bitter end; where time stops, meanwhile you're caught in a hurricane of emotion and negativity..and you're screaming at the top of your lungs "WHEN WILL THIS EVER END?" I've seen how a divorce can affect health, mentality, spirit, finances, homes, love, and respect. I don't even feel validated by calling it a "divorce,"more like the tearing of hearts, a disassembling of souls, an utter desecration of unity. Divorce: such a bland word for such a colorful circumstance. But what I'm really trying to say is, that I still have my heart open when maybe logically I should have it sealed shut. However, love is not logical....and as Reese Witherspoon said "If divorce isn't painful, maybe it wasn't the right decision to begin with.." My relationships have been anything but picture perfect, if anything they have been overly informative of the hardships these commitments can bring. I am definitely not naive. More importantly though, I have made sure not to become hard to love or make loving hard. Love is beautiful, yes a times tragic, but none-the-less something glorious. Love is something that not one person in the world does not need, it's right up there next to air and water. I'm here today, still wanting that bond, and yes I'll put all my chips in...bet it all..think the risk is big? The reward= greater. The moral is to make sure you don't close your heart, just make sure to keep your eyes open. Love and learn, learn with love. Don't lose faith and don't let your pride ruin you. OWN YOU AND YOUR HEART. KNOW WHO TO GIVE IT TO. THEN GIVE. No matter how much you try to have everything set up for success, in life and love, failure is inevitable. You have to put away your fears of the storm if you want to sail the boat... it WILL, I repeat WILL, be okay.



Oscar Falk

Just because he's amazing and takes gorgeous photos in general.

Now at Nordstrom...

Nooka watches Ranging from $130-$140 (green is exclusive)

Time for Tanning

Peacock Feathers and Vows

Presented at a wedding expo in Nanjing, China. 
The dress reportedly took:
 eight craftsmen two months to make. 
2009 Peacock tail feathers were used and 60 Heitian Jades.
The dress costs $1.4 million.
Now the question is...who's going to wear this?


Bob is Knowing.

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there."

— Bob Marley

Behind the Veil

I've learned enough to know I haven't learned everything

"as i’ve grown, i’ve learned several things.
life is full of disappointments and people you trusted will sooner or later let you down.
i’ve learned that often those you love will love someone else and there’s only one way to fall; fast and hard.
i’ve learned that out of thousands of smiles, it takes one to touch your heart.
i’ve found that words can be deceiving but the truth was lies in a person’s eyes.
i’ve learned that everything can change in a blink of an eye and tears often come without invitation.
i’ve learned crying can make us stronger and there is never too much love to go around.
i’ve learned that prejudice helps no one and that weapons don’t hurt people, people hurt people.
i’ve learned that sticks and stones may leave cuts and bruises but harsh words leave scars.
i’ve found that every time you give someone a piece of your heart, it’s a piece that you will never get back.
i’ve learned the past is meant to be put behind us and we can’t dwell on regrets, for what’s done is done.
i’ve learned that trusting yourself is the first step and that forgiving is remembering that helps your own heart more then theirs.
i’ve found that family isn’t always blood and everyone is someones hero.
i’ve learned life is unexpected and that God can do anything.
i’ve learned some things aren’t meant to be understood and that only times heals.
i’ve found that imagination is our greatest gift and that we are meant to dream for a reason.
i’ve learned it is never too late to fall in love and that being “beautiful” is all on the inside.
mistakes are our best teachers and everything happens for a reason.
only then can you live life to it’s full and true potential."

How To Work Better


i have never missed you more.

i will sit in class and hear the drone of secants and cosine x. tangent and quadrants. it makes no sense. i am consumed still, by the thought of you. my friends sit and whisper gossip, they try to interest me but they stop when my face is in my hands. i am so upset, i want the rest of the world to stop. they can tell.

the students amass. it is loud, it is civil, but still there is no order. they kiss; everyone. they hold eachother so tight, but you can see it in the eyes, she is being wasted and used. i am thinking of you. every love you i’ve ever claimed is earnest. i have never meant anything more.

i am on the verge of tears. i find my desk and lower my head into crossed arms. i am hungry, but i dont want food. i want you. my lips are chapped. they bleed. my mouth is dry. i dont need water. i need you. the headaches strain and tug at the back of my head. i need more sleep. you dont know that i am up every night. i wake up, constantly. hoping you’ve left me something, anywhere. i dont want sleep. i want you. like im obsessed. like i need to be immersed in everything about you. my teachers yell and my friends interrogate.
“you have one of those looks.” i dont respond. i dont want to talk. i want you.


Python Perfection

Devi Kroell pump
Devi Kroell $1295

Real Talk

Promises Like Pie-Crust

by Christina Georgina Rossetti

Promise me no promises, 
So will I not promise you: 
Keep we both our liberties, 
Never false and never true: 
Let us hold the die uncast, 
Free to come as free to go: 
For I cannot know your past, 
And of mine what can you know? 

You, so warm, may once have been 
Warmer towards another one: 
I, so cold, may once have seen 
Sunlight, once have felt the sun: 
Who shall show us if it was 
Thus indeed in time of old? 
Fades the image from the glass, 
And the fortune is not told. 

If you promised, you might grieve 
For lost liberty again: 
If I promised, I believe 
I should fret to break the chain. 
Let us be the friends we were, 
Nothing more but nothing less: 
Many thrive on frugal fare 
Who would perish of excess.

Monday, March 30, 2009

If I were 50 Cent/ Jessica Biel...

I'd be pissed....as hell.

These Past Couple of Days..

San Francisco has been reminding us that yes, we are FINALLY in Spring season. The weather has been incredibly kind. I have to say it's definitely been getting me hyped for picnics, hikes, downtown shopping and miniature get-a-ways. Even my pen feels a bit more cheerful when I write. I plan to start re-introducing my colorful wardrobe to my body, throw on the lenses and get ready for a new season of adventures..

I'm in love with Mary Jane

I have a feeling I'm not the only one...


My favorite off of Love Vs. Money

Who's Vanity Fairest of Them All?

Gisele Bündchen owns the cover of Vanity Fair's May issue. Classic style and beauty. I totally fell in love with the photo of her wearing the eye mask..because Nana and I actually sleep with these things on (believe it or not). Photographer Mario Testino really worked it out with Gisele, and appreciate the simplicity.

its early and...

Its early.

The sun's light filters through the black blinds.

Hitting my face in the strangest way..

just enough to wake me up..

not enough to force open my eyes.

moments like this.

Thats when I think...its when I desire.

how it'd feel to have someone..

play piano on my skin in the morning..

the gentle finger tips tapping up and down my spine..

sliding back up to form some physical melody..

some spiritual harmony...

verses whispered by my ears....

covey a musical reality. 

a romantic possibility. 

of having the perfect song played into my heart.

just the right amount of finesse used to write the lyrics into my mind.

a serenade for my soul..

but every song has a climax..  and every tune has an ending..

Maybe if I never open my eyes to see what's around me...

just this one can keep on repeating.

I feel the connection when he plays for me....

never rising.

just listening, understanding..


he's the reason why I love losing sleep. 

Saturday, March 28, 2009

"this wasn't no ordinary love, our sex wasn't no ordinary drug"

We Fight, We Love (Remix) (Feat. Kanye West & Consequence) - Q-Tip

cuz u turnin me on

Try thinking about it this way

Love is grand; divorce is a hundred grand.
I am in shape. Round is a shape.
Time may be a great healer, but it's also a lousy beautician.
Never be afraid to try something new.
Remember, amateurs built the ark. Professionals built the Titanic.
Conscience is what hurts when everything else feels so good.
Talk is cheap because supply exceeds demand.
Stupidity got us into this mess - why can't it get us out?
Even if you are on the right track, you'll get run over if you just sit there.
Politicians and diapers have one thing in common. They should both be changed regularly and for the same reason.
An optimist thinks that this is the best possible world. A pessimist fears that this is true.
There is always death and taxes; however, death doesn't get worse every year.
People will accept your ideas much more readily if you tell them that Benjamin Franklin said it first.
It's easier to fight for one's principles than to live up to them.
I don't mind going nowhere as long as it's an interesting path.
Anything free is worth what you pay for it.
Indecision is the key to flexibility.
It hurts to be on the cutting edge.
If it ain't broke, fix it till it is.
I don't get even, I get odder.
In just two days, tomorrow will be yesterday (**This one's brilliant)!!
I always wanted to be a procrastinator, never got around to it.
Dijon vu - the same mustard as before.
I am a nutritional overachiever.
My inferiority complex is not as good as yours.
I am having an out of money experience.
I plan on living forever. So far, so good.
Not afraid of heights - afraid of widths.
Practice safe eating - always use condiments.
A day without sunshine is like night.
I have kleptomania, but when it gets bad, I take something for it.
If marriage were outlawed, only outlaws would have in-laws.
Life is an endless struggle full of frustrations and challenges, but eventually you find a hair stylist you like.
You're getting old when you get the same sensation from a rocking chair that you once got from a roller coaster.
One of life's mysteries is how a two-pound box of candy can make a woman gain five pounds.
It's frustrating when you know all the answers, but nobody bothers to ask you the questions.
The real art of conversation is not only to say the right thing at the right time, but also to leave unsaid the wrong thing at the tempting moment.
Brain cells come and brain cells go, but fat cells live forever.
Age doesn't always bring wisdom. Sometimes age comes alone.
Life not only begins at forty, it begins to show.
You don't stop laughing because you grow old, you grow old because you stopped laughing.

someone to look out for

she is "pretty woman"'s niece, emma roberts, is bound to be a success with those genes. as she tears away from nickelodeonesque movies, she has two controversial movies coming out soon. here she is gracing the pages of teen vogue.

Friday, March 27, 2009

yes yes yes y'all

i ain't a big football of basketball fan...but i AM a fan of baseball! and i am soo sooo stoked that opening day is so close!

everything you see in orange, i plan on attending! who's with me?!

gimme a sweet tooth

M.A.C’s Sugarsweet collection hit stores this week, and there are loads of gorge tri-color glosses inspired by cupcakes and candies and other things we attempt-but can't always, try to resist.They range between $14-$17.50, to purchase go to maccosmetics.com
quick fact: did you know the only thing that is recession proof is lipstick?! in fact, it is one of the only items that have increased in sales in the last year? crazy huh?

Currently I'm obsesessed with...

Jimmy Choo Blyth sunglasses...$395 and can be found at bloomingdales.

Sneakerhead Fantasy

This month's Playboy showcases just how sexy sneakers can be.

el cantante

Jennifer Lopez as "Puchi" and Marc Anthony as Hector Lavoe.

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Here we go again

Spring has Sprung, and Steezy it will be

I decided to choose from one of my favorite spring/summmer 09 campaigns and bring you, what I think will be the best looks for this spring. Personally I plan on having my closet looking somewhat like this...

ok, so now, lets take a little breather and *PAUSE* if I decide this summer that I wanna have sex with my shoes on, THESE would be the ones...ok, now you can continue reading...

all of the above images: Gucci


Photographer Terry Richardson shot himself for Vogue Homme International for a watch spread entitled “Autoportraits”. The photographer injects the usual amount of skin into the shoot which oddly is about the watch...whatever it is really about though, I believe is open to interpretation.

PC: broccolicity.com